Bonus!

I found the entire second season of the IT crowd on Youtube. Whoooo hoo!

what am I so afraid of?

Losing my independence
losing my home
losing the capacity to function
never getting a chance to live life
being stressed out about being sick all the time
never finding peace again
being alone and never being with someone
not being able to have a child because of my illness
having to rely on my family
not being able to rely on my family

what do I need to do to help myself?

attempt to figure out disability, how to get on it
find some peace in every day life
stop being paralyzed by my indecision
work on art or other things that make me happy
stop being so petulant
be more proactive about my health
take control.